Is it that easy?

Courtesy: Hindustan Times
Tue, May 13 12:10 AM
I've only known comfort and security all my life.
I've not walked the less-travelled and forgotten paths.
I keep to the sunlit, paved roads carefully marked with directions and warnings. After I graduated, I married a man of repute.
I bore him a child, who studies in a reputed school. Most likely, he will grow up to become a reputed man and marry a suitable girl.
I live a glossy life, with a battery of servants, dogs and smiling friends, who look at me with awe. They wonder how I've accomplished so much.
While making breakfast this morning, I suddenly remembered him - my summer love, a love that was quick to come and go, but an everlasting one. It was the summer of '89.
I was 17 and holidaying with my family in a beach resort. The sun shone on my face and skin as I left my anxious parents behind and walked on the empty white beach.
The screeching seagulls, the crashing waves and the distant horizon - they enveloped me in a sense of newfound freedom. Alone and wild I ran across the sand into the water and felt as if I could go on forever.
As the air gushed through my head and heart, I felt truly alone and wild for the first time in my straitjacketed existence. I screamed my lungs out in joy.
Suddenly I caught a flicker of a shadow behind me and cringed. I turned around in slow motion, wobbly knees, as I allowed a complete stranger to embrace me.
And the funny thing is, without thinking, I too embraced him. And we spent a major chunk of the next five days in each other's arms.
It was not a romance that made me feel liberated, but it brought about a lazy unconcerned feeling of uninterrupted bliss. I pushed away the tense, irritable adult inside me, and let the little child emerge.
It wasn't love Now at 36, I'm not foolish to believe that it was love, although at that time, I wanted to marry him. It was more than love for me - it was the opening of doors to an empty field.
We felt devoid of complication and concern - like two floating clouds. And then it was time to say goodbye.
We did, because we knew we had to. That would probably be the last time we ever saw each other.
I came home and cried quietly in my room, telling no one about this quiet, happy affair. And then, like always, I went back to my old life - the life I knew I would continue with.
The good thing about summer love is that the lovers know, it will not last forever. It's the exciting feeling of nothing-else-but-this matters, which defines it.
As the sun rays give way to a colder moonlit sky, and children grow up to become responsible adults, these summer love stories are washed away in the sea where they were created.

Daily Dose at ILP

so i am settled here.pretty much enjoying my ILPat hyderabad kaafu hectic day rehta hai bt yess cool bhi haiii.. here is hw my day goessss
7:00 am.. oh shitt i am lateee for my busss kya yarr koi mujhe uthaata kyun nahinnn..fir bhi 2minute so sakta hai 7:05 ko uthungaaaaaafatafat tayyarhona hai, kapde dhona hai...
finally after multitasking my work i m able to be all ready in formals and tieto catch my bus and here my days starts with the telugu song widich i dont unerstand but still i njoy
so 8:15 ho gaye .. breakfast time hai and thers sun south idian dish on menu.naampadhke hi darrlagta hai .god knows what all they eat ... pesaruttu bisbella bhat aresum of them..butlemme tell u bahutdelicious rehta hai...
then when everybodys is gone to class i take outtime to sit alone to rremeber myfamily and friends and listen to sum gud music on my ipod bahutaccha lagta hiii
time ho gaya yarr .. class jaana hai .CR hoon naa.. sab materiial lena haiii, distriibute karna hai... aur baadmin lecture mein sona hai...:D10:45 tea break..yippeee free ki chai piyo,ladkiyon ke saath gap shap karoo.. CHAI PIYO MAST JIYOwapaslecture then lunch karo timepass karo aise hi nikal jaata hai pura time..
6:00 baje session khatam. TCSoffice jao ..fruit salad khaao frnds ko call karta hoonn ... thodi bahutfaaltu baat karta hoon fir gym jaaneka.. gudto free my legs and hands with loud music to put me into gears then rick se ghar aa janekaaa around 9:00 pm ko
bhukh lagi ha jabardast buffet dinner hai yahaan pe mast ekdum dal rice pulav roti rajma cabbage ki sabji salad raita and halwa,... sab dieting paani meeinn plus my jokes sab ka laughter and dinner ho jaata haii..buffet rehta hai toh paisa vasoolkarne ke chakkar ein kuch jyaada hi khaa letaa hoon...:P
then room mein jaanekaa around 10:30 mast timpepass karnekaa sab ki tanng kheechneka aur sab meri taang kheecte haiii ..spquite funn and thn finally SLEEPPPP ataround 11:30pm. bye GOODnight cyatc. missin u ppl loadssssssss

Initial days at Initial learning Program (ILP)

so my frst days at ILP. well ita ll strted with so much exuberance and excitement. evrybdy so concerened about the dress code and consulting others abt the matching ties with shirts . i dun thnk sum 1 ever thght that much about studing for training also rather thn the strict dress code . why do these ppl care so mch abt appearance and so little about wrk. why doesnt tcs let wrk spkk.. bt al in all a gud experience all dressed in formals .. feels ready for CORPORATE. bt in reality m nt ready thts a different story

so buses came and we went to hyderad university and everybdy ws comfused puzzled and curious as to wht we r expected to do here. and thn we landed in the auditorium to start with bporing and soprific induction lectures learning about all the history and geography of TCSvalues of TCS sum movies and songs endorsing tcs. but honestly spking, it feels gud tht we r a part of such a bbig group ..to learn about our company bt kabhi kabhi kuch jyaada ho jaata hai
neways we were divided in batches and all my class pl r in same grp so feels guddd. so m the new CR of my class nt tht i was elected due to my exceptional abilities bt just tht koi nahin ban raha thaa toh main ne haath upar kar diyee. and usse jyaada khushi toh jab hui jab gurls ki alag cr mili.. so apne toh majje hi majje

thn we played sum games amng batches and thoda bahut documents ka kaam hua . hdfc ppl came to open salary accounts. manager bechara khud bhi thaka hua thaa pak gaya tha shayad students ke doubt solve karkeee

neways thn gt dispersed and thn for next day at our CMC centre for training jahaan pe kuch nahin huaaa.. wohi muvis and all dikhaya thaa tcs ke baare mein .. all in all accha tp thaaa lets see jo dikhyaaya woh sab sach hai ki nahinnn..i hope woh sab sach hi hooo
luking forward to learn from it the best i can, njoy it the most i can and thn come to mumbai as soon as i can :D

Appu at Hyderabad

okieee m here in hyderabad
excited about my first job, living alone with friends, all masti njoying freedom
but i am sad about leaving my family, my friends etc etc.
also m scared about nt getting my base branch as mumbai.. agar kahin aur bhej diya toh kya karungaaa
so basically this whole gamut of ambivalence is great ......
everything is fine here. Accomodation is gud. decent enuff to spend ur vacation actuuaaly . thoda outer city mein hai what more u wnt thn 3bhk flat for 6 persons and TV and maids cuming to arrange ur bedsheets everyday..Kapda khud dhona padta hai.. shirts and trousers laundry wale ko dedenekaaaa but chalegaa
khaana bhi theek hi hain .zinda reh sakta hai uspee.. bt har time paisa dena padta haii.. salla bahut paisa kharch ho jaata hai.. yarrrek apple 15 Rs...!!!!zamaana kitna mehenga haii. yarrr .. dad is jus too gr8888 to handle all thngs so efficientlyy
ghumne wumne gaye thee.. saw a crap muvi DHOL kitna paisa waste ho gaya yarrrr..
so 2m my frst day of ILP .. anxiously waiting for it.. bubyee gudnite tc..:D

Vote of Thanks

Here i am waiting to start a new season of life. anxious about what future has for me, sad about what the past has taken from me. . dunnow why i m feeling so different about it. sab ke life mein yeh time aata hai. mere life mein bhi ayaa so its normal bt sumthng is different. kuch toh hainn..
neways m jus so grateful to all ppl in my life who hv luved me unconditionally, liked me so mch, hv helped me in difficult times created by myself due to my forgetfulness laziness carelessness etc etccc..

i dunnow abhi ak merifamily kaise jhel rahi hai mujhe aur meri pakau baaton ko meri sab faltu aadaton ko so thnks to my parents my brother

wud miss my cosuins shilpi didi and appy who listened all my pakau and senti tlkss

thnks to allll pasi ronak Sagars vivek hitesh akaash aditya ankit spidy anunay and several othr ppl in my group to help me out in my most difficult times of engineering

also lopa puja bhakti vaishali krutika for mking my engg funn and lively

thnks to my other frnds anup dhivya komal ketaki aparna aks pranav varsha chintan and all othrss who were mostly OL bt hv tched my life in a very special way

i luv u all ppl wud miss u greatly and deeply and yeah do miss me tooo:)

Appu.. The Baby Elephant

m like an elephant in humanss
black
big
pure vegeterian :D
harmless.
can swim ( decent enuff)
can run fast enuff when real trouble is getting onto me
happy to be helpful
really emotional and sentimental
nt boasting but i do care abt my frnds and family very muchfor which we elephants are most famous and are proud of:D

Lucky Me....

I m lucky that i wsnt one of the jews who were scared to death at every step they made during wrldwar2. who didnt know that they were taken to land where they wud be getting no food, no water. plc where money cant make ne mare go for it also requires food and water to go on.

I m lucky that i wasnt the one in the wrld trade center when it plumetted down to sheer rubble or the one who lost their near and dear ones in that tragedy. sum promises were broken even when they werent made to be broken. sum gud bye became the last gud byes. sum waits are nw lifelong and it cannot bring smiles on faces bt only tears in eyes.

I m lucky that i wasnt the one who got burnt alive in mumbai riots or godhra riots. There were cries and screams of bewildered agony and pain all over, where at one time people woke upto sweets tunes of cuckoo or caccophonous bt harmless sounds of cock to start their day. Mothers lost their children, sum younger thn 9 mnths who were yet to cum to life and sum elder thn 19 who were becuming the lifeline for their families.

I m lucky that i wasnt the one who gt carried away in rains of 26th july2005. Homes gt macerated in water and there were clouds all over in sky and in hearts of people filled with darkness. shops gt ruined and businesses stopped. everyone ws waiting for that silver lining or the new sunlight of hope to start life all over again.

I m lucky that i wasnt travelling in one of those 7 trains which were target of bomb sqarms in Mumbai. Sum lost eyes, sum lost legs, sum lost hands and sum lost lives. people struggling to get in heavyily crowded VIRAR fast trains to reach home 15 mins early nvr made it there.

I can go on and on and on like this and it seems i m the luckiest person having survived so mch bad that has happened so far in this world . Sumtimes i just wish that words like terrorism, calamities, attrocities, war, hate, etc nvr existed. i mlucky tht im sitting in my own cosy safe room sitting and typing all this, listening to sum very nice music rather thn running here and there for my life. i m lucky tht i hv my parents who are there to hold me and support me whenever i stumble rather thn hving maniacs in front of me in anger who wud be just ready to burn me or cut me if m nt of their religion. I m lucky that i went to school who taught me LIVE AND LET LIVE rather thn being in organizations like AQ where its is taught tht death is the only revenge.

I just thank god for making me so lucky for i dunt thnk it wud hv been possible without him and if u think even u r so lucky den plss dun fuhget to think abt it and thank him for always keeping his hands on us to protect us. For all others who arent so lucky i request thm to move on with life as THE SHOW MUST GO ON

Amen!!!!!!!!!!!!!